After I return to China this familiar place the feeling is hot, stuffy, bothersome ! After coming back daily my father and mothers in turn does the educational work to me, every day wants me to enroll in supplementary lessons my math! Really makes me to be very annoyed ! But they understood that what I am thinking? They thought that does not care about? Really makes me very helpless! I come back am not very happy! The body is a student really study on besides may worry the matter not to be possible outside the worry study matter? I really cares about my math very much! But they have listen to my explanation? The parents true will never understand that their child will be thinking anything, but they actually thought they 100% will understand their child!
I do not repugnant my parents, but not likes! They want to admit all day theirs thought in my head! I do not like by others restraining, like this makes me feel the pain and sad very! As child's I, really daily treats the books to study well, does not exit to play, whenever does not study time is accompanying them, that is a perfect score child? Is the child who they like? I very confused....I self-examined that oneself I cannot achieve such....!I am not study mathematics the clothing material! Self-examined that I have a intelligent head, but really does not suit the study mathematics, I do not interested the math very much ! Why can't train the student who I become liberal arts? Can the good result which takes in math that class be really the good student?
I just can feel bothersomely right now, cannot feel a faint trace happiness any more! Happiest time nothing better than with good friend's time! Regarding the friend, I did not know how to say! Probably one kind of distance's feeling, felt that between the friend and the friend has one kind of very far distance! What possible time is really a very outstanding executioner, between person and person's sentimental reduction slowly! Very heartless, very cold blood! I felt that is very no use and the helpless! When I comes back first day not to know that naively how to face them, is facing the surface, did not know that said anything to them! At that time really wanted to ask them, between us the friendship already became slights! Possibly these are only I indulge in flights of fancy! I should believe my good friends ! They are the valuables and money which my life is worth protecting!
Regarding my that person at heart, I already did not know how to face! I real solution that question! Comes back more than two months really may make me to forget her? I can achieve? I really did not know! I thought very much she can give me many opportunities! What a pity I already was cancelled by her obtained the opportunity qualifications! ....What do I sad also have to use? Was tired regarding her my real heart! ...I really likes her very much!
God! You rescue my this criminal! I really did not know how can be the human who only then makes me to care about to be was satisfied! My parents, the friend of mine, my lover ! I really cares about them very much, are time what a pity many makes them feel disappointed! God! Can you teach me how to do that ?
